biding

The time finally came.  I hoped it never would.  I think every mother who was infected and bore children worries about it.  For a while now we've noticed symptoms in our oldest daughter.  Mild, but alarming to our Lyme-savvy minds.  Lyme can be transmitted in the womb and I most definitely was infected when I was pregnant with both of my children.  I just didn't know it.

My wonderful doctor told us not to worry and to just wait and watch. And to assume symptoms that may arise might be related to other childhood things.   He said, "You'll know when you need to check it out."

We most definitely know.  It took a while to be able to test her because this great state I live in has driven out almost every Lyme-literate physician.  We ran into dead walls with her pediatrician.  Through online research and an online friend referring me to someone an hour and a half away from us who TESTS but does not TREAT, we were able to finally get our little one tested.

And now we bide our time.  It will take 2-4 weeks to get the results. I am unnaturally at peace and I know why. We specifically asked a friend on Sunday to pray for us that we would be calm and not anxious.

My husband is a great reminder to me to just take each day at a time.  When I let my mind wander too far into the future and into the "what-ifs", I can get easily overwhelmed.  He's right.  It doesn't do any good to wonder because it harms my body's trying to kill the yucks inside of me right now. One day at a time.

So when you think of it, please pray for our daughter.  Pray that she does NOT have Lyme.  I know that is possible!