tense

I've got an appointment next week with my Lyme doctor.

There are so many things I'm dreading to hear.  I am new to all this so I don't know whether an absence of old symptoms is good, or just something that happens only for them to return when they feel like it whether you're on medication or not.  I feel ENCOURAGED by the last month even though I'm nowhere near being "well".  But I have no idea in the big picture of things whether the doctor will be encouraged or just say I've got a long way to go still.

I'm also tense about possibly starting a new treatment process for a co-infection of Lyme that was mentioned at my last appointment.  I'm afraid of it making me ill (which with Lyme is a good thing oddly enough).

I'm also anxious about the possibility of a PICC line that was mentioned as something that might need to be done this year.

I'm also fearful of a possible trip to see the doctor (most of my appointments are via phone because we live half-way across the country).  I'm fearful of the fact that travel the seems to exacerbate my health and take me 10 steps back.

So many fears and I try to calm my anxious heart with prayers and giving my fears to the Ultimate Caregiver.

"Humble yourselves, therefore, under the mighty hand of God so that at the proper time he may exalt you, casting all your anxieties on him, for he cares for you."  I Peter 5:6-7

Pray for me when you think about it and I'll update you next week after my appointment.  Thank you!