Friday, April 15, 2011

right back down again

The evil yellow "paint medicine" has got me down again!  One more week and then I've got a 2 week medicine vacation!  I'm hoping that "off" time goes well and I can feel somewhat normal.

I was thinking again today just how much I use to take for granted how easy it was to do seemingly mundane things in my life.  Like showering.  This has got to be one of my biggest nemesis.  On harder days, a shower completely takes it out of me.  So far my record is 3 days between showers just because of how draining it can be.  And when I do shower, I certainly do not have the energy to shave my legs.  For this I feel terrible.

You know?  Your husband already has a sick wife and you would like to be aesthetically pleasing.....or at least as aesthetically pleasing as you can muster.  Makeup is hard....too much energy. I save it for when we go out (as few and far between as those times are).  Dressing isn't so draining for me so I try to dress fairly normal for Matt and try to AVOID sweatpants if I can, although some days sweatpants are a must.  Hair?  Well, I will confess I let mine air-dry.  And that isn't always pretty.  I do what I can with clips and such but that's just about it.

Oh how I long for the day when I can have the energy to get up, smell pretty, shave my legs, put on makeup, do my hair, and care for the kids, and have dinner on the table for my hardworking husband.  I know the day will come so I'm looking forward to it!


  1. My doc told me to expect a lot of ups and downs on it. I've had the most relief from it than from anything so far, and hopefully it will really help you, too! Hang in there!

  2. I thought of you today as I checked my kids over for ticks after our hike. I'm so sorry this has been such a rough road for you. I never realized how terrible this disease is. But the Lord is good in all things, and I will pray that He will draw you to Himself through this.